It’s a cathartic experience being in Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band

I preface this with something i learned tonight, I’ve done myself a disservice, I’ve owned Joshua Radin’s 2nd album “Simple Times” for over 2 years, and I’m lucky if I’ve even listened to it 4 times.

however, when i heard that he had a show in glasgow i had to get tickets, as i’d already missed him when he played the legendary King Tut’s Wah Wah Hut.

Tonight Glasgow’s Oran Mór plays host to Joshua radin and his band of merry men.
Opening with the beautiful “No Envy, No Fear” Standing with his guitar the crowsn is silent as he begins, the double bass kicks in, played by Jon Flowers, who tonight with the thanks of the red stage light, he looks like some sort of cross between Gargamel from the smurfs and Dick Dastardly.

In an unfounded surprise, Joshua side steps the mic and can fill the room with his voice, there is a certain charm at his ability to hold a glasgow crowd, never before have i been at a gig where you can hear a pin drop. Joshua’s voice has such warmth and depth that makes the room fall in love with him, the crowd itself is made up from people of all ages and it’s possibly one of the weirdest mix of people in one room i have ever seen. Joined on stage with the three members of The Staves as backing singers, the crowd continues to be under the spell of Joshua’s voice and the entire audience can’t get enough. Talking between songs, he tells of his inspiration, his break up with the one woman who he calls the love of his life, taking his audience on the journey with him. he talkds of how hard it was and after a beat and a shy smile he says” It’s a cathartic experience being in Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band”

playing songs from his forthcoming 3rd album, which he jokes that the uk might get it in 2 rars time and the “[he] doesn’t care, if you steal it”. These songs seem more upbeat, which Joshua atribuets to a year of depression and finally getting over it, its impossible to say that the Joshua and his band dont enjoy themselves on stage and it’s clear to see that the audience love it as well.

Maybe its my hatred for all things Lady GaGa

but every guy i see as possible boyfriend material

has terrible music taste

i mean i’ve never liked gaygay, i’ll never like Ke£ha

and god help me

i’ll never understand guys that can get their pussy wet over Madonna

sorry but that 60to hasbeen that you keep throwing your sequined boxers to?

yeah she had it in the 80′s

and like most of todays modern music. the rest’s been a bit shit.

just give me a guy that can appreciate the Beatles, who can listen to the hold steady and get the underlying metaphors.

just get me a straight guy with good music taste and i’ll work on turning him.

I’m working on my backwards walk.

I have many issues.

“Many” could be an understatement, but i’ve dealt with most of them but the majority still lingers.

I’ve self control issues, I’ve self loathing issues, I’ve issues that have no description.

I’ve hated more about myself than anyone could imagine. i’ve hated my mind,even at times it seems to be the only thing that works; works against me, but working in some form for me.

I struggle to deal with many things, but i get on with it, i’ve never been one to self destruct, thats always came as a result of previous incarnations of depression and self loathing, but i get through it.

I don’t know where this comes from, I’ve been doing so well. It just suddenly flooded back, from some unknown place. I compartmentalize a lot, and I have a process of not dealing with my problems. I put them in a box and it goes into the back of my mind, and I deal with someone else’s problems because in some way, they are much more easier to fix than mine will ever be.

Yes I Love My Country

I love music and  I love Scotland, one thing i’ve never done was combine my love and actually listen to some Scottish music.

This is indeed a lie, I mean there is Biffy Clyro and Twin Atlantic, but i’ve never really set out to listen to Scottish bands Biffy and twin, well they just sort of well, happened.
There is nothing better than a Scottish gig, most bands will agree with this fact. The crowd don’t care they only want a good time and what they want they will get.

i have opened my rather closed choice of music and began listening to more and more Scottish bands so I decided it was about time I shared my thoughts with the world.

The Xcerts

In The  Cold Wind We Smile

I adore this album its so warm. There is not a bad song on here,  most of the songs are almost anthemic with a sing along chorus and a powerful verse. i really want to see these guys live

We Were Promised Jetpacks

These Four Walls.
I will admit, I’ve had this album for months and never listened to it until recently, and I’m so glad I did. There is a certain charm to it its an amazing album with the perfect lyrics and perfect riffs.

Biffy Clyro

Only Revelations
Biffy have become the inspiration to many young Scottish bands, their 5th album is possibly their best to date, however I’d be willing to change that for Puzzle, every song is so well crafted and the lyrics, whilst odd, have a certain resonance.

Twin Atlantic

Vivarium

I can’t have a list of my favorite Scottish bands and not include these guys. I’ve seen them come from playing a show to 100 people to them playing sold out gigs at one of Glasgow’s biggest venues. Whilst their EP, in my eyes is much more raw sounding, Vivarium is a great way to step into twin, with some of the most beautiful sounds and lyrics appearing in Better Weather.

Frightened Rabbit

A Winter of Mixed Drinks

Once again procrastination got in the way, i had heard so much about Frabbit and just never got round to it but after I heard Jesse and Matt from Cobalt and the Hired Guns I gave them a listen and I’m so glad I did because there is nothing that sounds like them. they are a breath of fresh air.

I really cant think of any more, and there are loads of groups that i like but haven’t even popped up here but these 5 are my favorites, do yourself the favor of listening to them your ears will thank you.

Are you a man or are you a bag of sand?

Once again, it’s been a while.

Another month of absolute nightmare.
I’ve not had gigs recently, I did have 30 seconds to mars a few weeks ago.

i also had a boyfriend for a while, and it was good, too good, i was happy in a relationship for a change and he wasn’t, so thats that.

I’ve been invited to Chicago to see Cobalt and the Hired Guns in August/September for their CD release show. Which I’m really looking forward to, I just need the money and then it’s all good.
I’m also hoping to go to T In The Park this year. Once again, I need money for that.

I can’t save money for the life of me =/

But I’ll get by.

I’ve fallen in love with Frightened Rabbit, it’s taken me a while but i’ve got there.

I also seen Marc Maron in Glasgow the other night, and he was amazing, i was so glad i could see him, i never thought i’d have the chance due to him being an underground comedian from America.

It’s my 21st on Sunday, and I’m doing nothing, since I have no friends, and I’m not going out drinking by myself, I’ll be on my own drinking in my bedroom. Cause you know I’m cool like that.

Aye so I’m off for 2 weeks, and i wanted to go somewhere but with no one to go with its not as fun. So 2 weeks off doing nothing.

I’m clearly living the dream

I’m a sucker for fakes

So my life has been rather boring, one date that led to nothing.
And one guy whom i can never get in touch with.

Go me?

Twin Atlantic last weekend was fantastic, great band, great music and great friends =]
however this weekend hasnt been up to much, invited round to boy wonder’s on Friday but couldn’t go due to the fact he lives in Balloch, which is an hour and a half away from Bellshill, and working at 9 on Saturday wasn’t going to happen.
Invited round on Saturday night couldn’t go because i was working at 7 on a Sunday, my work is really interfering with my social as well as my love life, it’s a pain in the arse tbh =/

I’ll get over it I’m meant to be staying with him on Saturday night but I’ve the feeling that he’ll cancel on me, and we’re meant to be seeing Jenny Owen Youngs in March =/

I’m an addict for dramatics i confuse the two for love.

Like many thoughts in my life, my planned blog posts are only halfway to being complete and i have no motivation to write and I’m pretty sure that I’ll trail of during this post as well…

Things are looking up though, I still hate work, I’m still pining for the world of higher education, i really want to design on a professional level. One day, maybe.

other than that my day to day existence has been as dry as usual, i’ve given up on most of life’s niceties. I’ve also given up on boy #1, i don’t know why i number them since there is hardly a gaggle of them =/.

But yes I’ve given up on #1 much to my dismay, to be honest, I’m not in the chasing business and i don’t intend to go into a career that I’ll dislike more than the one that I’m in at the moment, one job I hate with a passion is more than enough, but it was becoming a nightmare trying to keep in contact with him, maybe one day he’ll come back, not too soon though.

And on that note #2 is not too bad, fantastic compared to #1, I mean he replies to my texts, sometimes, but he appears to be the front runner. And I’d be quite happy with that result though some part of me is waiting for it to fall flat on its arse but we’ll see going out with him on friday night so we’ll see =].

I’ve a weekend of win, Twin win, Twin Atlantic both nights this weekend =]
ABC on Saturday to see them play their biggest headline show to date
Then
King Tuts on Sunday, where I first seen them little over 3 years ago, and I really cannot wait.

I’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, those boys deserve everything that they get they really have worked hard for it.

I’ve been listening to nothing other than Plushgun, who are actually incredible =]

I finished it off with some French wine and cheese

There is a number of things that i’m not good at, expressing feelings being almost top on that list, one of the many things i am good at is writing a mass amount of shit. so i may as well mash my worst and my best traits together and see what i can come up with.

My sleep pattern is fucked, i’ve managed to work on little less than 2 hours seep every night. My appetite is non existant, ive been living off one meal of pasta a day for god only knows how long, and that along with the lack of sleep, isnt doing much for my psychological state, I’ve never been one to have a stable emotional state, but for once, i was able to wake up feeling somewhat content in everything, content in being, content in living day to day.

there is little that picks me up from my major mood swings, music, gigs and alcohol in copious amounts.

add to the problems of lack of food and sleep, work is making me depressed, there is nothing in this world i hate more than my job, i’ve never hated something so much that i’m hoping i get sacked just to get out of the place, being saced is a whole lot better than just telling them to shove it up their arse, oh how i wish i could but alas no.

my self confidence is bad enough already… no more knocks please?

I;ve been listening to Plushgun recently and i really do love them, and i’ve evern began to think that they are somewhat depressing.

oh and never listen to Damien Rice’s Accidental Babies when your depressed, it will tip you over the edge, thank god i was in work i’d have topped myself twice

happy 2010

i’m not even going to spellcheck this, check the grammer or even attempt to punctuate this.

I might complain, from time to time

But 2009 wasn’t really that bad.

Sure it may have been a tad boring but i have met so many new people that its all good.

if i take away that part about the stoner boyfriend who tried to kill me, this year has been great

There has been so much great music this year, so many good films, so many amazing gigs that i want to relive again and again.

there were instore sessions with one of my favorite bands, that i’ll never forget, the people that they have helped me meet is amazing and i thank them for it.

There were nights of endless chat and drink and laughter and just friendship that i’ll look back on with such great memories and i’ll be thankful for everyone of the people i shared it with

2009 will be summed up by listening to Twin Atlantic on constant repeat. By Forcing myself to watch movies i’d never sit through, then surprising myself by enjoying them.

2009 will be summed up by reading the same book over and over and over again, by being one of the lucky few who have seen Twin Atlantic sell out King Tuts, QMU and hopefully ABC.

There will be moments that i’ve forgotten.

And those moments dont matter, for i remember what i need, what i want to remember and i’m happy with my memories.

Who knows how 2010 will be?

Who would have thought that 2000 would lead to a global fear of terrorists, of a war that was founded on oil rather than the truth, of global recession and of a world wide pandemic started by a sneezing pig or bird?

who’d have thought that you’d ever be able to carry around 80,000 songs in your pocket, that we’d be able to store 1 billion bytes on a hard drive that can fit into your hand? the advances in technology in the past 10 years have been astounding, i can only imagine what the next decade will bring.

though, with the advances i’m still disappointed

All i know is that i havent gotten my hover car yet… i feel as though my generation has let me down when it comes to hover cars, but they’ll make good on it in the next decade… i hope they do at least.

Here’s to 2010 eh?

I find it shocking that…

I find it shocking that…
At the age of 20 i’m terrified of dying alone.

At any time, i hate the though that never have someone that loves me as much as i love them.

It’s pathetic tbh, i think its all the couples that i see, like kids that are a few years younger than me and they’ve been with the same person for 2/3 years and i’m lucky if my relationships last 3 months =/

i know i have the rest of my life to find someone, but i really want to find someone and feel safe, even if it is for nothing more than 6 months, i need someone to tell me that i mean something to them.

i need to know that i’ll be missed when i go.